Kurai Extravaganza

An aquintance of mine, D. Spoke some wise words yesterday. He asked whether I'd be leaving home now, and when I told him that the King and Queen told me I'd first have to pass the first year. He told me: "well, then you'll just have to work hard during the first year, and than you can leave and get some livingspace of your own."

This is definately I have to keep in mind for two reasons. One: Once I get used to something, I tend to fall back into my old rythm of doing everything last minute. Reason two: I'm not really looking forward to living at home for ages. This surely is my chance to get out, because if I work hard, I can prove that there is no need to keep checking on me, as well as setting up a rythm of learning which I can keep up to. After all those years, I still am bad at keeping structure.

Another thing is, this I have chosen myself so I'm sort of obliged to bring it to a good end. And after all, there is a future, and there'll be no one whom'll hire someone who is an addept of a culture of barely C's, if they can get someone whom graduated magna cum laude. And obviously, I should be able to do better than I have done all these years, as the only thing I actually worked for was maths. If I'd stop being calculative, and just work for once, it'll have quite some advantages. Not only what I described above, but also, I'll be able to keep up with aquintance C, brother to aquintance D, whom keeps acting as if he is king of the world and I barely the dirt beneath his feet, by whiles. Also, it'll pay off. I'm not planning on becoming one of the many awful lawyers whom one comes across, every now and then (I could tell you tales which make you burst with laughter). Though I have not displayed it really during the past six years, it's kinda all or nothing in my head. All or nothing, and I refuse to have the 'nothing'. Thus, I'll have to work for the 'all'.

I?ll have a new start anyway. New place. New people. New attitude. New me....?

Never.